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Patience, a word you so often use. A word you always seek, always need. The word that seems like your world revolved around in. “Where would I find more patience” you’d ask yourself.
Your world is like a roller coaster based on his emotions. Like your walking on egg shells and afraid to disturb him in any way. Your afraid you might hurt him without meaning to. Afraid you might say the wrong word and start another fight. Things you want to tell him has to be thought a thousand times before telling him.
Words checked and double checked to make sure you won’t hurt him. Though the more you try to be careful, the more you distance yourself from yourself. The more you change yourself for him. The speed in which you have to constantly change wear you out. Too fast for your own emotions to keep up.
“My emotions don’t matter” you’d think. “His sensitive and he needs my support”. You’d make yourself believe that your emotions will get in the way. That you have to hide what you feel and keep your mind in place. He’s weaker than you emotionally.
He can’t easily cope and is not flexible like you. So you have to do it all for both of you.
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Journal: How? (Part 8)
Part 8 journal by Dianne Mae. Staring into space again. it’s been a year and you’re still so hung up with what happened with him. you keep asking yourself what went wrong.
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Journal: Circle (Part 7)
Part 7 journal by Dianne Mae. You’re on a limbo. You keep asking yourself if you did the right thing. If stepping away from her is what you’re suppose to do.
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Journal: Falling (Part 6)
Part 6 journal by Dianne Mae. You see his back, see him walking away. Your heart feels like it’s being crushed to pieces. You can’t seem to keep a hold of your heart. Your brain feels freedom but your heart feels pain.
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Journal: Awakening (Part 5)
Part 5 journal by Dianne Mae. After a while, you get a chance to meet her. The love of your life. The one girl you can’t be without. Before, you’ve never seen the changes. I didn’t even notice the distance she made. Though now that your’e looking, you realize how far she’s been. You realize…
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Journal: Choice (Part 4)
Part 4 journal by Dianne Mae. Years have passed and yet your still with him. Your love for him slowly withering away. You watch him cave in himself. Watch him destroy what you both have. Still, you stay by his side.
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Journal: Tangled Thoughts (Part 3)
Part 3 journal by Dianne Mae. Years passed like a blur. You don’t remember much of it. Don’t remember what you’ve said, what you’ve done. All you remember is the pain. Always the pain.
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Journal: Confusion (Part 2)
Part 2 journal by Dianne Mae. Patience, a word you so often use. A word you always seek, always need. The word that seems like your world revolved around in. “Where would I find more patience” you’d ask yourself.
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Journal: Thoughts Between You and Me (Part 1)
Part 1 journal by Dianne Mae. You try to fight it off, try to remove the negative thoughts in your head. Things you don’t believe is true, yet can’t help to wrap your mind around it. You know it’s wrong, so you try to do what’s right and fight it off. Yet try as you…
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