~ Part 4 ~
Years have passed and yet your still with him. Your love for him slowly withering away. You watch him cave in himself. Watch him destroy what you both have. Still, you stay by his side.
There’s nothing you can do. What matters to him more and more is his pain. You can see that he can’t get past that haze. Try as you might, with all your strength and your love. For him nothing else matters anymore. Not even you. Not even your love.
You grow distant towards him. Afraid that you might get sucked from that black hole within him. Little by little you step away from him. Baby steps you make ’cause you still don’t want to loose him. But you know if you don’t, you will spiral down that hole too.
“Stay strong” you tell yourself. Delude yourself that someday this would change. That someday the man you love will come back to you. But first you have to stay strong, and let him go. The only way the man you love will come back to you, is if he finds himself on his own. It’s a battle you can’t win. Because it’s a battle only inside him.
You wait for his return. Always watching out for the man you love to come back. Wishing hard that you didn’t loose him for good. Praying hard that he sees the truth. He is amazing in his own way. He loves so deeply and so true. He stays by your side through good and bad. Always good to you and others. A real treasure he truly is. You pray and wish hard that he sees. Your love lays dormant waiting for him.
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Journal: How? (Part 8)
Part 8 journal by Dianne Mae. Staring into space again. it’s been a year and you’re still so hung up with what happened with him. you keep asking yourself what went wrong.
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Journal: Circle (Part 7)
Part 7 journal by Dianne Mae. You’re on a limbo. You keep asking yourself if you did the right thing. If stepping away from her is what you’re suppose to do.
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Journal: Falling (Part 6)
Part 6 journal by Dianne Mae. You see his back, see him walking away. Your heart feels like it’s being crushed to pieces. You can’t seem to keep a hold of your heart. Your brain feels freedom but your heart feels pain.
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Journal: Awakening (Part 5)
Part 5 journal by Dianne Mae. After a while, you get a chance to meet her. The love of your life. The one girl you can’t be without. Before, you’ve never seen the changes. I didn’t even notice the distance she made. Though now that your’e looking, you realize how far she’s been. You realize…
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Journal: Choice (Part 4)
Part 4 journal by Dianne Mae. Years have passed and yet your still with him. Your love for him slowly withering away. You watch him cave in himself. Watch him destroy what you both have. Still, you stay by his side.
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Journal: Tangled Thoughts (Part 3)
Part 3 journal by Dianne Mae. Years passed like a blur. You don’t remember much of it. Don’t remember what you’ve said, what you’ve done. All you remember is the pain. Always the pain.
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Journal: Confusion (Part 2)
Part 2 journal by Dianne Mae. Patience, a word you so often use. A word you always seek, always need. The word that seems like your world revolved around in. “Where would I find more patience” you’d ask yourself.
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Journal: Thoughts Between You and Me (Part 1)
Part 1 journal by Dianne Mae. You try to fight it off, try to remove the negative thoughts in your head. Things you don’t believe is true, yet can’t help to wrap your mind around it. You know it’s wrong, so you try to do what’s right and fight it off. Yet try as you…
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